I Can't Take it Anymore

Yesterday I was sobbing over the prospect of having to come into work today. It wasn't just the "leaving home for the week" aspect, either - it was the whole damn thing. So...I'm making a Job Wanted Application. I decided to figure out what it was I wanted in a job, and I'm gonna post it. Coming soon. I know this much - it won't be Test Analysis. I've discovered that even though I may be GOOD at it, I don't like it very much.

So...I'm posting my JOB WANTED, and I'm praying - HARD - while fighting back tears - that God sends me THAT JOB very very very soon. I don't care anymore if I have to move, just so long as I don't have to be away from my family all week, every week, anymore, and I don't have to do this Test Analysis "teamwork" stuff anymore. I'm tired of having a job where if ONE person can't be arsed to do their job properly, it makes us ALL look bad, and EVERYONE has to work overtime to make up the slack. And I've only had this one since August! I can't keep doing this for the next twenty years.

God, please, I know you'll take care of me and I trust you. I do. I just...I'm getting very very close to rock-bottom right now. I was really thinking seriously of just calling my current employer and quitting outright. NONE of my applications are getting anywhere, you HAVE TO do something soon. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm getting desperate...please...

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