Cleaning to Move
Whining. Lots of whining ahead.
So we decided we have to prepare to move. No clue where, or when, or even how yet, but we're going to prepare anyway. We're starting to clean and decrapify. Good idea. We'll do that first, get as much of that tackled as we can, before we start doing things like "rent a storage locker to move junk into" and "painting".
But dangit, the whole "moving" thing is so overwhelming right now that I'm just completely depressed and discouraged about it. Sure, we can clean and decrapify, sure we can rent a storage locker to move our crap into, sure we can (probably) paint...but realistically, our house is going to need thousands of dollars worth of work, including a new privacy fence since ours is falling apart, and that's just to get it sellable. Especially in today's market, we might be able to get a sale price of what we CURRENTLY owe on it (mortgage and equity loan) but I sincerely doubt we'll clear enough to cover current debt on it PLUS the cost of improvements.
And enough for a down payment on a new house somewhere else is probably completely out of the question.
I keep telling myself that if God wants us to move, he'll provide the means, but honestly his way of providing "means" isn't always what I think it is and lately it's turned out to be stuff that I really don't even like, let alone want or hope for.
I mean, for all I know it could be that God's saying, "hey, you can charge it all and pay it back, that's your Means To Move." And that's what scares me, that's why I'm completely depressed and thoroughly discouraged.
I expect that in a year (or less) I'll look back on this and say, "dang, I sure was wrong and I really do need to trust in God more and in His guidance." I mean, the Israelites sure didn't and look what happened to them. 40 years of wandering. My favorite.
God, just for your information, it's kinda cold in Indiana to live in a tent year-round. And people get testy when you pull up and camp on their lawn. Just sayin.
So we decided we have to prepare to move. No clue where, or when, or even how yet, but we're going to prepare anyway. We're starting to clean and decrapify. Good idea. We'll do that first, get as much of that tackled as we can, before we start doing things like "rent a storage locker to move junk into" and "painting".
But dangit, the whole "moving" thing is so overwhelming right now that I'm just completely depressed and discouraged about it. Sure, we can clean and decrapify, sure we can rent a storage locker to move our crap into, sure we can (probably) paint...but realistically, our house is going to need thousands of dollars worth of work, including a new privacy fence since ours is falling apart, and that's just to get it sellable. Especially in today's market, we might be able to get a sale price of what we CURRENTLY owe on it (mortgage and equity loan) but I sincerely doubt we'll clear enough to cover current debt on it PLUS the cost of improvements.
And enough for a down payment on a new house somewhere else is probably completely out of the question.
I keep telling myself that if God wants us to move, he'll provide the means, but honestly his way of providing "means" isn't always what I think it is and lately it's turned out to be stuff that I really don't even like, let alone want or hope for.
I mean, for all I know it could be that God's saying, "hey, you can charge it all and pay it back, that's your Means To Move." And that's what scares me, that's why I'm completely depressed and thoroughly discouraged.
I expect that in a year (or less) I'll look back on this and say, "dang, I sure was wrong and I really do need to trust in God more and in His guidance." I mean, the Israelites sure didn't and look what happened to them. 40 years of wandering. My favorite.
God, just for your information, it's kinda cold in Indiana to live in a tent year-round. And people get testy when you pull up and camp on their lawn. Just sayin.
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