No

​I’m not thankful.

I’m not rejoicing.

I don’t understand.


It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

This isn’t how things were supposed to go.

I don’t understand.


We only had a short time.

We were supposed to grow old together.

I don’t understand.


We had plans.

We were going to do things together.

I don’t understand.


I know I have no business telling God how to run HIS creation. 

But it’s not supposed to go like this.

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

This isnt right and WHY DIDNT HE FIX IT.

Why?


I just don’t understand. 



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