BuT GOd hAs sOmEtHiNg bEtTeR

So I’ve been told that when our lives go awry , God has something better planned for us. Romans  8:28 and all that. God works all things together for the good of those who love him, who are called for his purpose.
Which IN THEORY is great, but it also feels like I’m a kid being told I can’t go to the pool this weekend—but what I haven’t been told is it’s because you’re taking me to Disneyworld or something.

Well, so far I’ve had my pool privileges revoked twice now. This Disney trip better be fucking AWESOME, it better come really fucking SOON, and it better fucking last a fucking long time. 
And yes I WILL continue to fucking drop f-bombs like I’m a fucking toddler who has simultaneously discovered the word AND that it horrifies the adults when I fucking say it.
 Because I. Am. Fucking. DONE.

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