Ask, Seek, Knock?
God, I'm trying really hard to hold to your promises. I'm no longer merely asking, I'm begging and pleading. I'm no longer merely seeking, I'm frantically searching. I'm no longer merely knocking, I'm desperately pounding.
I'm trying...very very hard....to hold on to your promises to care for us. But frankly, right now, I'm wondering if You think the sparrows are more important.
Even if You don't give a fetid dingo's kidney about me, how'sabout thinking about my family please. And Zion - how about them?
I'd take an interview today for pete's sake. I'd tell my "Engagement Manager" that something has come up that I need to take care of, see ya tomorrow, and I'd drive the freaking three hours to an interview. I'd take a substantial cut in pay.
This situation is rapidly becoming intolerable, and You're the only one that can do anything about it. I've done everything I can. I've applied for every flipping job that has come across my inbox as an individual email / job offer, regardless of salary. I've applied for all kinds of different jobs. I've applied for stuff that I normally would've just bypassed because hey, you never know.
Y'know, I didn't go with that job placement firm back in '06 because it was pretty clear You didn't want me to. I took this job because it was the only fucking thing offered, which also looked pretty much like "Hey, God wants me to take this."
WHY? Why did You want me here? To do something any idiot keyboard monkey could do? And it just keeps getting fucking worse, not better. Not at all better. I'm not seeing anything that says "oh, that's why". Not seeing anything at all except that it keeps getting worse. My job keeps sucking - and it keeps getting worse. I'm more and more of an outsider at Tina's. So tell me, exactly what is the point of all this?
Hello? Are You even listening? Or am I on my own here? If I'm not, then show me.
I'm trying...very very hard....to hold on to your promises to care for us. But frankly, right now, I'm wondering if You think the sparrows are more important.
Even if You don't give a fetid dingo's kidney about me, how'sabout thinking about my family please. And Zion - how about them?
I'd take an interview today for pete's sake. I'd tell my "Engagement Manager" that something has come up that I need to take care of, see ya tomorrow, and I'd drive the freaking three hours to an interview. I'd take a substantial cut in pay.
This situation is rapidly becoming intolerable, and You're the only one that can do anything about it. I've done everything I can. I've applied for every flipping job that has come across my inbox as an individual email / job offer, regardless of salary. I've applied for all kinds of different jobs. I've applied for stuff that I normally would've just bypassed because hey, you never know.
Y'know, I didn't go with that job placement firm back in '06 because it was pretty clear You didn't want me to. I took this job because it was the only fucking thing offered, which also looked pretty much like "Hey, God wants me to take this."
WHY? Why did You want me here? To do something any idiot keyboard monkey could do? And it just keeps getting fucking worse, not better. Not at all better. I'm not seeing anything that says "oh, that's why". Not seeing anything at all except that it keeps getting worse. My job keeps sucking - and it keeps getting worse. I'm more and more of an outsider at Tina's. So tell me, exactly what is the point of all this?
Hello? Are You even listening? Or am I on my own here? If I'm not, then show me.
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