Lost, or Far Away?
We're told in the parable of the Good Shepherd that Jesus would leave the 99 sheep behind, safe in their paddock to go get the one wandering lost sheep that isn't in the sheep pen.
Yet, we're also bombarded with trite little sayings like "if you feel far away from God, guess who moved?"
I realize we can't sit fat, dumb, and happy in the pew every week and expect God to just "okay, do everything for me, I don't want to have to think, you do it all". BUT, sometimes, when we feel like everything really is falling to pieces, and we feel like God really is in the Kingdom of Far Far Away, and we aren't saying "screw it", we really are seeking His Word and praying and reading the Bible and "doing all the right things"...then what?
Sure, I get it, I'm not "aligned with his will". FINE, but it's a little difficult to do so when He's not exactly forthcoming about what that IS. Back to the game of "Twenty Questions" where the ONLY ANSWER is "NO".
"How about here?" "Nope."
"Okay, well, what about that?" "uh-uh."
"This?" "try again!"
How can we "move closer to God" when it feels like the damn goalposts aren't just moving, but they're enshrouded in a fog so thick we can't ever even see them, AND they're actually secretly in a different ball park altogether.
And today...today I just feel like the lowest slime for even wanting a DIFFERENT job, because at least I have one. Yup, the news told me today, "Hey, you're a creepy whiny jerk, aintcha, because at least you HAVE a job. And looky here, over 10,000 GM jobs are getting cut today. And a few thousand people in Indiana are losing theirs today because their employer's shutting down. Shut up, ya whiner."
My new favorite phrase is courtesy WildStrawberry:
"I know life isn't fair. But why can't it be unfair in MY FAVOR once in a while?"
Yet, we're also bombarded with trite little sayings like "if you feel far away from God, guess who moved?"
I realize we can't sit fat, dumb, and happy in the pew every week and expect God to just "okay, do everything for me, I don't want to have to think, you do it all". BUT, sometimes, when we feel like everything really is falling to pieces, and we feel like God really is in the Kingdom of Far Far Away, and we aren't saying "screw it", we really are seeking His Word and praying and reading the Bible and "doing all the right things"...then what?
Sure, I get it, I'm not "aligned with his will". FINE, but it's a little difficult to do so when He's not exactly forthcoming about what that IS. Back to the game of "Twenty Questions" where the ONLY ANSWER is "NO".
"How about here?" "Nope."
"Okay, well, what about that?" "uh-uh."
"This?" "try again!"
How can we "move closer to God" when it feels like the damn goalposts aren't just moving, but they're enshrouded in a fog so thick we can't ever even see them, AND they're actually secretly in a different ball park altogether.
And today...today I just feel like the lowest slime for even wanting a DIFFERENT job, because at least I have one. Yup, the news told me today, "Hey, you're a creepy whiny jerk, aintcha, because at least you HAVE a job. And looky here, over 10,000 GM jobs are getting cut today. And a few thousand people in Indiana are losing theirs today because their employer's shutting down. Shut up, ya whiner."
My new favorite phrase is courtesy WildStrawberry:
"I know life isn't fair. But why can't it be unfair in MY FAVOR once in a while?"
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