God, Please...

God, please...
I'm at the end of my rope.

God, please...
I don't know what else to do.

God, please...
I hate my job, but I can't just quit.

God, please...
I have never, ever felt so much dislike for one place, one company, or one person as I do now.

God, please...
Please don't leave me here. Please don't keep me here where these feelings aren't just staying, they're getting worse. Please don't make me do this.

God, please...
Please. I need your help. I can't handle this job, this place, this life "style" anymore. I need something else.

God, please...
I don't see any way out. I don't see any hope. All I see and feel is despair. Please...please...please...

Get me out of here.
I want to go home. I want to go home to my family every night. I want to not feel nothing but contempt for my co-workers. I want to not hate my supervisor. I want to feel something besides hopeless despair.

God, please....
Please....
Please.....

Help me....

And thank you for my wonderful husband and bestest friend, because without them, I would've given up by now. I can't give up, because I know what it would do to them if I did.

God, please.....
let me be somewhere where they care about me...where it matters if I'm hurting...

Please...

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