I Can't Hear You, Lord

I don't know what you want from me, but I sure wish you'd stop screwing around with the sparrows and just tell me . I had an opportunity for The Perfect Job, and instead someone else was hired. Screw this. People tell me you love us even in adversity. Show me, dammit. SHOW. ME. Right now all I'm feeling is jerked around. And in my experience, you don't jerk around the ones you love.

So, I'm nervously awaiting to hear if I got the job I interviewed for that I really really REALLY want. And I went outside to go to the cafeteria, and stepped into the sun. I'm sure that later today I'll be complaining about how hot it is and how horribly icky and sticky and humid things are, but right then , for that moment , stepping into the sun felt like being enveloped in a warm, loving hug from God. And then, a little robin, who looked like he might still be shedding the last few down feathers, landed RIGHT in front of me. I mean, MAYBE 4 feet away. Cute little bugger. Fearless, I'll give him that. He didn't fly away as I walked by, either - he just hopped to the side on his quest for breakfast.