I Can't Hear You, Lord

I wondered this weekend if I was really "waiting for God to tell me where He wanted me and what He wanted me to do", or if I'm just using that as an excuse to sit on my butt and do nothing. Move to Indy? Don't want to. Going to anyway, if we have to, but doesn't mean I want to. But...I wonder. When does "waiting upon the Lord" become "so I have an excuse to sit here and do nothing until I get The Answer"? And, since I have no real idea what God's trying to tell me (hey, look at the title of the blog, for pete's sake), that really means I'll never get the answer, unless God gets an email station installed up in Heaven. Meanwhile, I keep getting job offers for positions I am clearly unqualified for, and it's real dang obvious the recruiters didn't bother actually checking the resumes they're skimming. Heck, they're probably bot-scanning them and having the bot send out an auto-email to everyone who posts a r...

Also talked to Kev a bit about "future planning". We've decided that we've made some good progress at cleaning, and now we're going to "clean-for-moving". We have boxes in the garage, and we're going to start throwing away, boxing up, giving away, and generally get ready to move. No, I don't have any kind of idea where we're going - or even IF we're going. But...things can't go on like they have been. Our lives have been "on hold" for far, far too long. We can't really do anything, because every single thing we need or want to do together has to be crammed into Saturday. FRIDAY and Saturday, if we're lucky and I get to do a 4-day week. And, really...that's gone on FAR too long. I honestly don't know how much more of it I can take - it gets more and more depressing every Sunday night, when I know that I have to leave on Monday morning. Sunday is the Lord's Day, it shouldn't be depressing! S...

Good time over the weekend. Had some tense moments when we were asked "what is your problem with Nicole and Hal, specifically, and can you perhaps tolerate them for a few days so we can have Christmas with everyone together if they come up?" *sigh* I understand my mom's desire to have everyone together for the holiday. Celebrating with the ENTIRE family (or as much as she can get together) is very important to her. Especially if everyone can be there on the DAY, instead of "somewhere between Christmas and New Years." I've gotten really used to fragmenting my holiday celebrations, so honestly, it doesn't bug me (us) to celebrate Christmas with my parents on, say, December 28 or something, and with ONLY them, or just a few other people. In fact, I can honestly say I prefer just a FEW people rather than a BIG WHOLE CROWD. But I do understand my mom's desire. I get it, I really do. And Kev and I both really, really, really really reallyreallyreall...